Where are you now..??

Hey there, legends!

Today was a good day! I didn’t cry once—phew, there, I said it. Life has been tough lately—financial struggles, car troubles, a lack of privacy, mum life, trying to be a good partner and a present mother, all while building a new brand and recently coming off my anxiety medication after four long years.

It's been honestly rough. We're headed south back to Victoria because I need some rest, and so does Luke. A few family members have visited, and I've been away for a weekend, but that was a business trip to the annual Juice Plus conference (the nutritional support company I'm partnered with). It was pretty hectic, busy, inspiring, and fun, but there was no downtime, and I had a kid with me for every visit. If we weren’t traveling, I'd have one or both kids in childcare, April would be at pre-kindy, and I’d have a few hours a week to put my thoughts together, catch up on self-care, and maybe spend time with Luke—having a conversation without interruptions, crying, or someone pulling on my hand or shirt. But I also miss my people so much. I can’t wait to see my family and a few old friends.

Ultimately, I'm expecting it to be extremely overwhelming. I've felt isolated for so long that I've become used to it. Isolating myself was always something I did, though I enjoy my own company. I didn’t see this as an issue pre-kids because if I wasn’t hiding out, then I was out partying and surrounded by people. Neither of which was good for me—part of life in your twenties, yes, but at what point does fun become an unhealthy coping mechanism? Anywho, I didn’t realize isolating myself was an issue until I became a mother, then COVID and Melbourne lockdowns hit, and it became a bigger issue than I ever could have imagined.

Since traveling, though, I haven’t meant not to socialize; I just haven’t been able to. That’s the thing about living on the road with a 4-month-old and a 2-year-old (now 2 & 4 y/o)—they need constant attention and care, or at least that's how it is for me. No walls, no doors, no fences—roads, cars, animals, strangers, and dangers everywhere. They are smart and switched-on kids, very capable and aware for their age. Life lessons are truly something else; there's no education like experiencing life.

I've put on weight, haven't been true to myself, and felt like a bit of a fraud with all this happening. That's why I've been lagging on uploading, writing, sharing, and promoting. I haven't been eating the best, moving my body through exercise regularly, taking any time out, I've been Angry so angry, iv'e become scared of people and the world again, i've forgotten who i am, who i want my children to see. I'm not comfortable with me right now.

I've been struggling with my mind and my body! So, who the hell am I to be, for lack of a better word, "promoting" health, self-growth, and happiness? Then I woke up. I've been here before so many times, and each time, I manage to find my way a bit quicker with more experience and knowledge of my strengths.

I forgot my mission, my vision, and that my weakness is my strength. It is my story, and it is how I can help others overcome something in their life or at least let them know they are not alone! We can do this!

Until next time, legends <3